Episode 3 - The Return
Two years later
When I read that I’m imagining the monotone spongebob narrator voice, just so you know. I hope you are too. If we are to be literal it’s been a little over two years, and yet I’m in the same position I was before. About to face a new beginning. This time a really big New Beginning.
I’m moving into a new city, on my own. Well not truly on my own, but this is a big adult step for me. To leave the nest. I’m ready. Scared? Yes. I don’t know how to describe it but there’s just something in me that’s ready to go. I imagine that scene from Beauty and the Beast where Belle is singing on the hill outside her town asking for “adventure in the great wide somewhere” or Ariel struggling to walk on her new human legs in The Little Mermaid. Is it obvious that I’m a Disney adult, yet?
Anyway, what have I been up to in the last two years? Trying to figure out who I am and what I’m made of. I learned that I am able to persevere even when times get really tough and every fiber of my being wants to quit and run. I learned that I still have no idea what I want to do in my life but I’m taking it day by day. I’m still working on my dreams and some old one’s are coming true. It’s the old dreams that you forget about because life gets in the way but somehow the stars align and your path starts making sense and suddenly a dream comes true. Moving to this new city is a dream that I forgot about.
Dreams are funny like that, aren’t they? Where life happens and your hope crashes because you think that dream will never become true. You’re constantly hit with obstacle after obstacle. No matter what you keep going though. You live life, making friends, and memories, creating new dreams, achieving different goals until one day an old dream pops up. This time it’s possible. All you’ve ever wanted was for it to be possible and here is, only a few days away.
I’m not going to make empty promises that I’ll be more active here. I don’t want to overwhelm myself with the imaginary pressure that I created. I’m willing to document my adventure, and my interests. This has always been about my interests and my opinions. It will continue that way.
Right now, I’m working on reading more. Reading is something that I love. In 2024, I read a lot! I was reading at least one book a month. I even had a book club. Sometimes good things end earlier than expected and life gets in the way of things we love. I don’t want to make excuses because unfortunately, I doomscroll too much to say “I don’t have time to read.”
Currently, I am reading the Throne of Glass series to prepare for A Court of Thorns and Roses Book 6. I finished Throne of Glass back in early April and I am now indulging Crown of Midnight. Crown of Midnight has been a tough read. It’s a lot of death and misery. I wasn’t really expecting a lot of hardships. At least only in the last 100 pages, not in the whole book! I’ll save talking about my journey with the Throne of Glass series for another time.
Reading isn’t the only thing I love that I’m returning to. I’m going to return to a lot more hobbies that I’m passionate about. I’m gonna get my groove back. My passions will return.
To be continued…
-AJ
This time I won’t disappear for two years.
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